Imagine for a moment
that you’re in a large room full of people.
Upon entering, every person in the room, including you, was given a
shirt of a specific color. At some point
a loud voice calls across the room and asks for everyone to please divide up
into groups according to the color of their shirts. The people in the room quickly divide
themselves into two groups. On one side
of the room are people in yellow shirts, and on the other side are people in
blue shirts. As you look down to see
which group you should be in, you suddenly make a shocking discovery: your
shirt isn’t yellow or blue. It’s
green. What are you supposed to do
now?
This is the world TCKs
find themselves in. Third Culture Kids,
as the acronym stands for, are kids who have been raised in more than one culture. Typically this means that their parents are
citizens of one country, but, for whatever reason, the child has spent part or
maybe all of their life in another country.
Most children, if left in this second culture long enough, will begin to
blend in with it and may even come to think of it as their home culture. Occasional visits and stories from parents
may be the only thing linking them to their original “homeland”. In most cases it is fairly obvious that the
child is not, in fact, from this second culture, but somehow they blend in
regardless.
And then comes the
dreaded day when the child is forced to return to their home culture. Typically this comes when they graduate high
school and are sent back “home” to go to college and find a job and begin
building their own life. Everyone just
assumes that because this child has a passport from that country and was born
to parents of that nationality that they should automatically fit in. There’s just one (big) problem: this strange
land is no longer home. It’s like being
born in a blue place to blue parents, but then spending a vast chunk of your
life living among yellow people. What
results is a person who is really neither blue nor yellow. No, we are something entirely different,
something somewhere between the two. We
are the kids in the green shirts.
I myself am a
missionary kid, and I spent six years of my pre-college life living in Europe:
almost four years in Croatia and just over two years in Poland. Before, after, and in-between there was life
in the United States. That makes me a
bit of an oddity among TCKs. I was only
out of the U.S. for two consecutive years before I graduated high school and
returned to my native country. Most
people would assume, then, that culture shock on the return trip would have
been minimal. They couldn’t be more
wrong.
I have been back in the
U.S. for just over a year, and there are still days when I feel like a
foreigner. I don’t know all the new
songs or why it is that everybody just has to get the new I-Phone. I have yet to see a single episode of
“Friends” or “Smallville”, which means that any references to the characters go
right over my head. When my friends talk
about actors or sports teams, it isn’t unusual for me to have to ask who they’re
talking about. In fact, it happens so
much that we’ve made a sort of joke out of it.
Whenever one of them gives me that look that asks if I’ve been
living under a rock for the last decade, I remind them with a smile that I was
raised in a foreign country. It’s not
entirely true, but at least it earns a few chuckles and turns the focus away
from my apparent lack of any relevant cultural knowledge.
Despite having a
passport that clearly says United States of America on the cover, most days I
feel far more European. I followed the 2012
Euro Cup religiously, and spent a good deal of time talking with my family about
who would win each match. When the Super
Bowl rolls around I’m lucky if I know the name of even one of the two teams
before the scoreboard gives it away. After
two years in Poland I only speak a bare fraction of the language, and yet I
find myself yearning for the Polish worship songs that seemed to so perfectly capture
my heart despite the fact that I could barely understand them. I also have a tendency to make unconscious comments
about “the Americans.” At which point my
friends have to laughingly remind me that, despite all of my valiant denial, I
am in fact one of them.
And yet, at the same
time, I’m not. Not really. There may have been a time when I was
American, but those days are long gone.
There’s too much yellow mixed in with the blue. No matter what anyone says, the truth is that
I’m green now. TCKs come in all shades
of green. Some of them are die-hard
blues with just a few years of yellow added into the middle. Some of them are almost completely yellow
with the only blue being the letters on their passport and the relatives they
visit every three years. But regardless
of how much of each color is mixed in, none of us is really one or the
other. We’re all something in the
middle.
It’s always interesting
to watch TCKs interact. You could take two TCKs who grew up in
completely opposite environments, and if you put them in a room together it’s
almost certain that they will not only find each other, but that they will bond
with each other on a deeper level than either of them does with anyone else in
the room. Even someone with whom they
have the exact same interests. Why? Because we as TCKs understand something about each
other that no one else can. We
understand that strange betweenness, the strong need to belong somewhere when
it seems we belong nowhere. No matter
what the exact shade, we realize that we are all green. And since we don’t seem to fit in with any of
the other color groups, we might as well form one of our own.
My name is Ash, and no
matter what my passport says I’m not an American. Neither am I a European. I’m a TCK, a proud wearer of the metaphorical
green shirt. And this is what life looks like through my eyes.
-Ash
My TCK kids want one of those green shirts. :D
ReplyDeleteI'm starting to want one myself. :) The picture on this blog I actually made in photoshop, but I'm sure if you could somehow get ahold of a blank green T-shirt and some iron-on letters it wouldn't be hard to make one. I might have to look into making one.
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